Another reason to hate Prednisone

I have come to the conclusion that prednisone really is the best/worst drug ever in the history of drugs.

Best- because it makes you better right away (in my case anyway)
Worst - hahahahahah. Well if you've been reading my blog you know about all the wonderful side effects, so no need to repeat them here. While all have gone away by now except for the weight gain, I have realized I am most likely experiencing another right now: post-prednisone depression

I've googled it and apparently it's a thing. While I was on the drugs I had up and down emotions. Often I felt really down, but I thought that it would go away. I know it's been quite bad for a month or two now, I would guess around the time when my rage and hunger decreased. I would get really sad and think about everything in my life that sucked. It's been happening more and more lately. Weekends are usually the worst, I think because I don't have work to distract me for half the day. To my family reading this- I'm sure this is just a side effect, and that I am actually fine. I am going to discuss this with my doctor when I see him in 2 weeks. See, right now I'm ok. Last night, different story. Sobbed my eyes out. Truly tho, I feel like I am a generally miserable person these days. I don't feel like going out. I feel like I am forcing myself to act ok and smile at work when really I just want to come home to bed. I guess I'm still able have fun when I do go do things, but it's hard to remember those times now when I am so used to feeling sad and crappy. I hardly do the things I used to do to make myself happy (cooking, baking, nail polish). Even yoga seems like a chore now. Today I was going to go, then 30 mins before I decided to not go. Granted I felt grumbly but I'm sure I would have been fine. Hopefully this goes away soon or my doctor can give me some insight or suggestions. Again, family, I don't mean to worry you about this. This isn't me, it's probably the drug monster holding on for dear life.

Today me and my parents went bowling. It was fun, especially since we really never ever hang out together. I'm sure that's mostly my fault, since as a teenager I wouldn't be caught dead hanging with them, and then it has been a habit ever since then. But now at 25 it is fun! It was my dad's first time 10 pin bowling, and he sucked the first couple turns and then he ended up winning both games :|

I'm getting sleepy now, probably will sleep soon.
Night!