Today I feel like a monster. My temper is very short these days to begin with, but today seems worse. I was on my way to work and people were just making me crazy! I almost screamed at an old lady for stepping back slightly when the train was approaching the station and she pushed into me a bit. This is not me! I had to try so hard to keep my mouth shut, what I wanted to say to her was really mean and unfair. In my defense, my stomache was really hurting me and all I could think of was reaching the bathroom a couple stations away, and there was a train delay at the time. But still…I should not be wanting to tell off innocent bystanders.
Also, I stepped on the scale this morning and wasn’t happy with what I saw. I need to stop my constant snacking! But I feel like my crankiness will get even worse if you add hunger to the mix. I worry for society. But I can’t keep gaining weight or my already getting too small clothes won’t fit me at all. So add stress over my weight to what I’m going through too. And my chubby face. And I think I’m getting this “buffalo hump”. Ugh. Feeling crappy body and mind wise today. I wore nice clothes to perk me up, it helps slightly. I strategically picked out my clothes to hide my bulging tummy. The first outfit I picked today made me look like a whale.
I hope today goes by quick and I can go home. I miss my sweats.
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